One Step Closer to the Bell Jar

I’m your fly away muse

The light bulb in your dark

You’re my voice in the silence

The moon to my stars

But is the pain worth the art?

The broken bones

Bruises on the soul

Just another slit of the knife

And baby you’re all mine

I’m your Sylvia Plath

And you’re my ted Hughes

But should this end?

Or continue to inspire?

For years to come

Madness for beauty

Even if it ends with my head in an oven?

Shimmer

The sparkle and the shimmer

Flies past the night

Past the moment

Evaporating

A mist that one can never grasp

The melting snow

Burns the touch of the ice

The fresh water cleaning everything in its path

Peace and quiet on the souls

Charity and love coming forth

Even for a momentary glimpse

Content is the word that comes to mind

Beauty of the rising dawn

If only it could last forever

Afloat.

I can’t see you through the fog

A phantom

A ghost

Lost through the sea

You’ve forgotten me

But I stay still

Hoping

Aching

A void that will not be filled

Or even understood

I have the stars

Beyond the dark

The will keep me afloat.

4 A.M.

Restless as the night fades to the dawn

Hungry for what I cannot seem to face

Lonely as the silence takes hold

A new day approaches

Yet I lay awake

Hopeless

Dreaming

Empty

Blackness

So I gave you all I had and you threw it away

I kissed your hand and you punched me in the face

Dreamed of you every night

Now my nightmares star your eyes

And then I shift to new lies

Something forms deep in my gut

It eats away at what I know

It fills my mind with blackness

It leaves me with no soul

It leaves the bottle empty

And me dry with nothing more

I wish I could stop the darkness

And save myself from the unknown

But can I save what’s already lost,

By the haunting of another soul?

Clutch

Clutch to your name

Cause nothing has changed

I’m still the girl who fears the pain

But revels in it

I see you from a distance

And wonder if your smile is real at all?

I should focus on me

Find a boy to fill the void

But your eyes still haunt me

You knew me better

I knew you less

Did it even matter?

I don’t still want you

This isn’t my play

Getting this off my chest is what I need

So my friends can finally forget your name

And maybe, I’ll find a reason to believe again.

Urge

Drip feed me your lines

Bit by bit

Sigh by Sigh

I know you’re a liar

But so am I

I’ve fallen before

Head first

Backwards

You name it I’ve gone

Don’t tell me I’m wrong

I know your eyes

Green through the winter

Blue in the spring

Red when you see me

Black through everything

You know me with that echo

The voice of wanting

And the silly smirk

No one said this would be easy

But you know you wanna try

Just a taste of your lips

And we can say goodnight

No more passion plays

A fly by night

We can just be alive